Counting the Callback as a Win (Even When It Didn’t Feel Perfect)

I just had a callback for a really big brand — huge SAG opportunity — and even though I don't feel like I nailed it, I'm choosing to count it as a win.

It was a live Zoom callback, with the director giving me real-time directions. I think I integrated the notes well, but not well enough, at least not by my own standards. I walked away wishing I had done things differently... and that feeling isn’t new. Callbacks are stressful — they aren't my favorite part of the job. I used to beat myself up after callbacks, especially if I felt like I froze or didn’t deliver. I’m just an overthinker. Let’s admit that :)

It's interesting, because I don’t feel this way on set. Once I’ve booked the job, I’m calm. Confident. I show up and I do the work. I can’t even remember the last time I was seriously nervous on set. The pressure of the callback, though, still gets to me. The stakes feel higher because it’s the moment before the door opens (or closes).

But I’m learning to change my mindset. This callback might not lead to a booking. And that’s okay. But I’m still going to call it a win.

Because I got called back.

Because I got in front of a director.

Because I got to practice.

Because every rep makes me stronger.

And eventually the reps might dd up and won't be nervous. Just two days ago, for instance,, I gave a speech in front of nearly 300 people — something that would have terrified me not too long ago. I was nervous — but just a little — not enough to highjack my performance. And that’s because I’ve been showing up, again and again, even when I’m nervous.

So if you're someone who gets anxious before callbacks, you're not alone :) Nerves are normal — especially when you're passionate about something. What matters is what we do with those nerves. Today, I’m choosing to let them fuel me, not freeze me.

Next time, I’ll do better. And that’s what this is all about.

If you are trying to put yourself out there, take this as your reminder: you're doing better than you think. Keep going.

— Kristina